Misc Originals – Anna Doxtator - Not The Same (Guitar)
Capo 3
Key
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Speed:
1.0x
Chords
[Verse 1 — soft fingerpicking]
G People say your childhood shapes you, Em7 but mine just cracked me open wide. Cmaj7 Spent years collecting all the pieces, D not sure which ones were still mine. G I was daddy’s girl, no question, Em7 even when life moved him place to place. Cmaj7 Counting coins for a Happy Meal D like we were breaking every rule we faced. G I never saw the pain he carried, Em7 only saw him trying hard for me. Cmaj7 Didn’t see the storms behind D the tired eyes he’d try to hide so quietly.
[Verse 2 — build slightly]
G Then the nights grew heavy at Nana’s, Em7 thin walls trembling with my mother’s cries. Cmaj7 I didn’t know the reason why, D but something cold sat deep inside. G And when they told me he had left me, Em7 felt the earth tilt, felt the world go still. Cmaj7 But hope kept whispering, "He’s coming back," D so I waited by the window sill. G Nine hours watching cars go past me, Em7 streetlights humming like they knew. Cmaj7 I slept curled up beside the glass D ’cause I swore he’d walk back through.
[Pre-Chorus — more emotional]
Em7 They said, “You need to move on now,” Cmaj7 but they don’t know what losing feels like. G How do you let go of a heartbeat D when it still echoes in your mind?
[Chorus — big, sad, melodic]
G And I’m scared I’ll forget his laughter, Em7 like a song I used to know by heart. Cmaj7 Scared his voice will fade to quiet, D scared the memories will fall apart. G And my stepdad tried to love me, Em7 ’til life gave him someone new. Cmaj7 Suddenly I wasn’t in the picture, D just a shadow slipping out of view. Em7 But I didn’t fight or beg to matter, Cmaj7 ’cause I know what wanting love is like. G Didn’t want my brother growing up D feeling the empty ache I’ve felt all my life.
[Bridge — soft, vulnerable]
Am7 Everyone keeps telling me G/B “Let go, move on, forget.” Cmaj7 But they don’t know the kind of love D you carry in your chest. Am7 They didn’t sit beside a window G/B hoping footsteps might come home. Cmaj7 They didn’t learn what loss feels like D before they even learned to grow.
[Final Chorus — softer, sadder version]
G And I’m scared I’ll lose the memory Em7 of his hands wrapped gently around mine. Cmaj7 Scared I’ll blink and he’ll fade further D like a story left behind. G So don’t tell me to stop holding Em7 onto love that still feels true. Cmaj7 I’m still that little girl who waited D for the dad she swore she knew. Em7 Maybe someday I’ll stop searching Cmaj7 for the warmth I used to feel… G But how do you move on from D someone who never wanted G to leave you for real?